@Greenreader9 @Admin and others
I won’t be here for a while
because for the last three days I haven’t eaten anything, and in those three days I slept maybe 5 hours in total. when I stand on my feet it turns black and I have to crouch.
my Cat died during those three days in great agony.
I was with her the whole time, I can’t describe to you what it’s like when you hear her fast and shallow breathing “phphphphphphphphphph”…all night long.
She couldn’t eat or drink anymore, not even by force through a syringe (nothing passes),
Her organs started to fail…
at one point we both looked into each other’s eyes, Her eyes were full of pain, She wanted to greet me and yawned a little but couldn’t make a sound…at that moment it was as if someone stuck a knife in my heart…
there is no worse feeling than the feeling of helplessness.
this morning at 5 am I was digging a grave…
She was with me day and night for 22 years
She was a big part of my soul, She was a person…
I’m crying, I’m broken, a big part of me is missing…